self inflicting pain doesn’t hurt as much as it should
dragging a blade across my wrist is numbing, intensifying, releasing
In some weird twisted fucked way it doesn’t hurt.
I sat on the floor of my shower, holding my knees to my chest.
The shaver knicked my ankle and blood gushed down my foot. Accidental. But it felt so much worse than a blade. So much better.
When we want it to hurt, it doesn’t.